What did the disciples try to do under their own strength?
Sail across a lake in a storm... cast a demon from a boy... walk on water... understand Jesus's teachings...
Probably a better question would be what did they not try to do under their own strength.
Jesus made it very clear when He called them little-faiths: ὀλιγόπιστος oligopistos (ol-ig-op'-is-tos) From G3641 and G4102; incredulous, that is, lacking confidence (in Christ): - of little faith.
We smile and shake our heads and say, 'How could they not have faith?'
I sit in a chair and know it
will keep me from falling on the floor. I turn the key in the ignition
of my car and expect it to start the engine and for it to take me where I
need to go. I don't have quite as much faith in my computer as it has
failed me more often than my car.
There is the key. My car,
actually, has never failed me... the one I have now. Other cars failed
me and one in particular I never had faith it would start. I'd always
prayed and hoped it would start.
God has never failed me.
Why is it, then, I sometimes have doubts? Is it my point of reference?
People have failed me... even the ones that I never expected much from,
failed me. It isn't their fault because they are human, with human
natures that are imperfect. We do not have the capability to be perfect
within our flesh. That is impossible. God, on the other hand, is perfect
But... we guage God through our human-ness.
We think with our finite minds and see with our imperfect vision and
this is how we see God, forgetting that we are made in God's image (not
the other way around) and not in His perfect nature and character. We
have the potential and we will be perfect one day, just not today.
Therefore, we cannot see all that God sees or know all that God knows
and that makes for a very imperfect understanding of our own situations
and future. It also makes for a very imperfect, and perhaps quite wobbly
Here is the tricky part. God is okay with the wobbly
faith up to a point. There comes a time when God expects trust no matter
the cost, and trusting Him can be quite costly from a secular world
point of view. Yet, it is our weakness that glorifies His strength. Our
trust magnifies His name. Our frailties in concert with God's power
makes the angels wonder.
God has never failed me. I have to go
with what I know, regardless of the feelings of doubt, because those
feelings are so fleeting. So, I put my hand in the hand of the Man that
stilled the water because He kept His promises no matter the cost. How,
indeed, can my faith falter?